This thing called Life.

 

Hello, fam.❤️

It may seem as though my letters these days have been having a sad tone to them, so you'll just have to pardon me.

This is me trying to fulfil my promise to write to you soon. It's a new month, and it's the 9th today. (Happy New month tribe 🥰)

I honestly did not know it would take me this long to write again, but then here's to me fulfilling my promise. 🥂

Oh, I fulfilled another promise two days ago and I put up an episode on my podcast. Okay, before I go on, let me gist y'all about the episode. I got up with an old friend, and a close one, AY/Beejay. We were close friends in primary school. Primary school guys! And long story short (we explained everything in the episode) we got together and recorded this beautiful episode. 

Now, I know that I promised that my blog posts weren't so disorderly but this is me apologizing in advance because I think this one might just look that way. My thoughts are strewn across so many places, I find it hard to focus on one thing for a period of time. But then, just consider this me writing to you to catch you up on what I've been up to.

Lol, someone told me I do more shallow work and I guess I've been overthinking it. Yes, they didn't mean it like that. They were only trying to prove a point- I easily get distracted and this person said I've been doing shallow work because of this.

I've been reading all my old works since then. Lmao, I'm a clown ikr.

Riddle me this guys, plenty work in small time or quality work in little time? Yes, the latter. So tell me why I'm running a race that no one has sent me on. Why does it feel like I'm running too fast trying to catch everything at the same time?

I saw a post today, a screenshot. It's very valid, I promise you. 😭Maybe that's why I've been feeling so unlike me.🤧

Wait, have you ever felt like you wanted to disappear and everybody should just getat? That's how I've been feeling lately o, egbami.😭 Who go pay the bills if I disappear?😂

So on the flip side, I haven't written a story in the longest, and idk why.

Just yesterday, I started one but stopped almost immediately because I felt like it might not be as good as I wanted. Guys, what do we call that? Lmao.

Oh, I got two rejections yesterday in the space of 10 minutes. I just weak lmao. In my line of work, rejections aren't something to take too personally but as an over thinker... Well💀

I got home, listened to Tems and Burnaboy and slept off. I woke up in the night, cried my eyes out, prayed and watched a movie, slept around 5am.😂 (I'm not that weird I promise.)

And yes, I woke up to go to work and felt better. I got to work and met one of the best news of my life. Today was stressful guys, but today was very good for me.

I won't be a hypocrite and say I didn't give up. Lol, I gave up plenty of times. But I got back up again. And even if I didn't receive good news today, I'd have still risen. I know what I aim for. I know what I see ahead of me and giving up won't get me there. So who says I should give up and stay there? Why would I do that? Why would you?

My dear fam, life is tough. Life is unfair, but life can also be beautiful. I want you to know today that it's okay to get tired. It's okay to scream, it's okay to feel the way you feel. It's not okay to not come back up. What is not okay is dwelling there so long that you lose sight of where you're going. 

Everything is working out well for you already. Trust the process and keep on pushing. Listen to good music, talk to someone if it helps, pray and cry out to God.

And again, I want to implore you not to get so tired you forget your why. I want to plead with you to see the bigger picture because bad days don't last forever.

For now, that's all I have, guys.

It's about to be an extremely busy weekend for me, so help me God.🤧

Tribe, I'm working on some things and I can't wait to share them with you. But don't worry, I'll ja-you-si very soon.😉

Thank you for reading this.❤️

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Oh, I have a free podcast class coming up. Details will be out officially on Monday. If you're interested, drop a comment.

Don't forget to reach out to me if you want to. Do that here.

Love y'all sm.

Xoxo.

ShadesofGrace.✨